...................

killed....get killed....or just get myself kill...

killin myself today....yes i am....

wish sumone comes to me now with the knife....

or

machine gun.....

just hit me....hit me hard.....

till' the blood comes out from every part of my body...

i'm not gonna scream....i'm not gonna laugh either.....

thats for sure......kill me.....

just kill me now....

i dont have much guts to kill myself now....but.....

wish i'm dead now......

Desire

water and fire
earth and air
bring me the one
my heart desires.

i hate you.....

i'm having trouble focusing the facts
what is and what isn’t.

you blur my lines
we’ve come so far haven’t we?
strangers...friends...lovers
what’s next dearest?

i look at your face
and already I feel I know it so well
through my distorted view
and your colorless eyes
i know what each line and each expression mean
or at least I think I do

naked....

bodies...hearts...words
i've seen it all of you
you’re amazing

and I'm blessed

in all my dreams I never though we'd cross
i've always looked to you
now in another light
how did this happen?
when?
years ago probably
a seed growing
so long under the surface
and now blooming

sometimes I hate you
want not to know you
sometimes I love you
and hate to not know you
It’s strange isn’t it?

this paradox often has me perplexed
tell me all the answers
i anticipate each morning
and each night you’re in my thoughts
i remember every word
i remember every talk

how did this happen...?
when...?

my life is upside-down
and I'm beside myself with joy

sadness..grief..anticipation
excitement..sorrow..love

thank you,
but I hate you.....

stupify me...........

this is so nice, this will all fade away....
so much fun today, it will all go away

all these words with such meaning will sway....
there is no meaning..at least not today

sew my ears tight that i wont hear words to inspire me....
burn my eyes out that I cant see the irony

cut my limbs so i dont feel whats around me...
tear everthing out that I might acheive simplicity.